i'm not sleeping
not closing my eyes
to see his face
to see his face
to see his face
to see his lies
obsessed with faults
he holds me
not to kiss
not to ease
not to touch
but for this:
to pull me open
from side to side
tap, press my buttons
still he asks why
why i'm not crying
not tears are shed
over his glare
his stare
his lack of care
i dread
and still as a child
i fret on days
over his face
and eyes
and creulty
and lies
and heart! he rips apart in me
and fuck! all this ignominy
and no! i'm not waiting for his face
to smile
to learn
to plead
to haste
cease! he yells and slaps my mouth
blood! i taste and it runs down
sorry! he says but i do not cry
and give into his face
give into his face
give into his face
give into his lies.
