I took this large pill of something. and the words started flowing...
800 mg to forgiveness
your blank stare
an endless sea
of unparrallelled uncertainty
my eyes attempt
to vainly decode
what your eyes righteously forbode
your lips unmoving
no words displayed
my self esteem now a bit frayed
your feet shuffle sadly
my head longs to connect
and with you all moments attempt to correct
the times I spoke too much
or uttered none
when I stopped myself short when I'd just begun
I was scared of you
and all you seemed
this is not an apology, I don't want to be redeemed
just give me another
blank sheet in your book
remove all the cliches for me you mistook
just cut away the levels
the walls you raised
i don't want to be a label or any other phrase
give me a fresh start
no emotion, no fear
so I may make the right words appear
just tell me there's time
for me to renew
all the wrong first impressions i gave to you
i'm in no way perfect
but i'm good enough for this
i seek no utopia or self-induced bliss
i want some emotion
to feel like i've attended
the right courses to which you've recommended
i won't fit your mold
but i'll use it as a guide
i'm not your past downfalls, i've still got my pride
i'm just starting over
from the bottom to the sky
i spread my own wings, i don't need your wind to fly
you're just my radar
you keep me in line
you make certain my course in life divine
you're not the one
you're not an obsession
just give me a blank page
this won't be regression
I beg you to please
take these words as true
I don't need or want much
but i need and want you
just take my hand
walk me down this trail
perhaps the wind may pick up
and along the breeze we'll sail.
